O.k, so maybe I should be doing something non-computer related at this moment. But the desire to blog, is winning over. :-) It's been awhile since you've heard from me...
A topic that has been on my mind lately is that of 'being a good steward'. I suppose I hadn't heard that term in awhile, because when I read it in one of my pen pal's emails not long ago, it stirred me to question what 'being a good steward' really meant to me personally.
I guess I hadn't really considered it before.
At first I thought of what gifting or areas of my life that I have neglected...Some areas came to mind. Although, as I continued to ponder...I realized that things have changed over the last few years. There are some hobbies that I once engaged more in, that I don't anymore. There are some friendships that have fallen into the neglected category, (not by my choice or doing).
It's interesting though...how in some cases "neglect" isn't always bad.
But change occurs, and life does not remain stagnant. Then this song came to mind: http://youtu.be/X91IWV_rEmI
Yeah, and then there are those neglected areas, neglected relationships, that you wish you could change. But, not everything neglected can be so easily 'picked back up'. Because you can do your part, but every man has his. You can't make someone else be a 'good steward'.
And then I thought about how we can be poor stewards, by 'overuse'. Whatever causes 'waste', whatever causes 'decay', 'ruin'...these are fruits of 'bad stewardship'.
Being a drunk, being an addict...is being a 'bad steward'; a bad steward of health, money, time, etc.
And then I considered how I have 'overused' more than 'neglected'. Yeah, perhaps I have neglected spending time reading the word, and I could be spending more time basking in God's presence...but overall, it's the "bad stewardship" of 'overuse' that hit home for me.
You see...I love to write. Writing has always been a way pouring my feelings out, talking to God, communicating with those closest to me, making friends, creating stories, etc etc. To some it's 'painting', to some it's 'visual arts', to others it's just 'speaking', everyone has their own 'language of the heart'...Written words, have been the language of my heart, whether they're sung with music, scribbled into a journal, or penned in a letter.
And that's all fine and dandy, but it has come to a point where I have 'over-written'...and my body has been starting to feel the effects. Stiff wrists, popping joints, and lack of penmanship control.
And then there's online communication. I spend a lot of time on facebook, when I'm bored, wanting to chill, or am just looking for some friendly communication. But, when your eyes start to dry up, and your back starts to hurt from hunching over the computer, and your wrists hurt from clicking/typing on the keyboard...it's all signs, of "overuse".
Same with watching too much TV, and playing too much piano. Any object or activity when overused or overdone can become unhealthy for the mind, body, or emotions.
So I feel some changes are in order. They are occurring as I type. Other things, hobbies, relationships (things I've invested into for so long) are suddenly changing in their importance and preeminence. I feel my body asking for a 'break'. What does this mean? It means I may not be writing as many letters, it means I may not be visiting facebook as often, it means I may have to give some things a rest, and pick up new hobbies and start new activities. It's a good thing. And I'm not just 'deciding' to make changes, these changes are occurring in me. I feel my mind, body, and emotions asking for a "break"...'breaks' from some things I never thought I could grow tired of/from.
All I know is that I may be wandering around aimlessly for a bit, and it may take awhile to figure on what to focus my energy on, and what to spend my time on, in the place of that which I'm 'breaking' from. But, it will become easier. And I have God to question and lead me in the right paths.
So what does 'being a good steward' mean to you? Have you been a 'good steward'? If not, how can you make up fro the energy, time, health, lost? Do you feel called to 'take a break' from something? or maybe 'pick up' what you've 'put down'?
Oh, and if you're curious here are some scriptures about 'being a good steward':) http://www.openbible.info/topics/being_a_good_steward
Over and out.
AJ
